October 2011
1 post
I think it's finally done this time.
Work is slow, and I’ve been meaning to write ever since I did last time (and have been burning to try since last week).
It seems that this move to Oakland is solidifying a lot of the decisions that I was to weak to deal with before I made the ultimate decision to live here. I want to be a better person and surround myself with better people, and that involves letting go of anyone who will...
August 2011
1 post
the skin around my face is raw. i’m tired of crying.
July 2011
2 posts
My back hurts.
Spent all of yesterday hanging out and being a non-productive member of society. Day drinking! Margaritas on the roof! Patron shots! Oh, and a late-night boost job. Boooooosted. haha.
It’s getting closer and closer, and moving out/jobs/cover letters/interviews/$$$$$$$$ is really all that consumes my mind. That is, when I’m not chasing away my worries with shots of tequila on the roof...
The Fear
I haven’t allowed myself to stop for a while. These days I surround myself with worries about the future, with worries about the present. With others, with partying, with things to do… with him. He’s my favorite distraction. But you can’t run from everything for too long. I’ve been scared a lot in my life… even when I felt strong, beneath it all I’ve...
March 2011
2 posts
still reeling
Saturday, March 26, 20011. 10:18 A.M.
“Isn’t it nice when the weather matches your mood?”
Rain has been following me for the past week. The last time I saw the sun was on the 17th, the afternoon my head cleared and the rush of endorphines never stopped. I aced my poli sci midterm when 12 hours earlier I was 5 hyperventilated breaths away from a full-blown panic attack....